[If he had the awareness to really think about his position he'd be jealous of how detached the man could be. He'd love to look that distant, that above it all-]
[But, really, if he were in the same situation he couldn't even do that. He wasn't used to being exposed to this sort of thing. His inexperience would start to show.]
I don't know! [He repeats, louder, more frustrated, and that leaves a weakness in his own self control. His dips his head back down, into his hand, hoping to keep it back, and fails. He doesn't fail terribly but he does still fail, spitting up a mess of something that doesn't really look like it belongs inside a human stomach. It's black, viscous substance that drips over the edge of his palm, oozing and then falling off in strange-looking chunks. It's disgusting but the taste at least doesn't trigger another wave of it.]
I don't know! It wasn't like this when I was running the stupid store! [There were some headaches but nothing like this.]
cw: emetophobia
[But, really, if he were in the same situation he couldn't even do that. He wasn't used to being exposed to this sort of thing. His inexperience would start to show.]
I don't know! [He repeats, louder, more frustrated, and that leaves a weakness in his own self control. His dips his head back down, into his hand, hoping to keep it back, and fails. He doesn't fail terribly but he does still fail, spitting up a mess of something that doesn't really look like it belongs inside a human stomach. It's black, viscous substance that drips over the edge of his palm, oozing and then falling off in strange-looking chunks. It's disgusting but the taste at least doesn't trigger another wave of it.]
I don't know! It wasn't like this when I was running the stupid store! [There were some headaches but nothing like this.]